Sunday, July 27, 2008

Me and the Chain Link Fence


I have needed to write a blog on submission (because God told me to) for a while now. But I didn’t do it because submitting my will, plans, opinions, ideas… and control is really hard. And how could I write a blog telling people to submit to God when submission is still an issue that I have to work on everyday?

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I just feel like I can work out a situation on my own. I don’t really need anyone to help me out or tell me their opinion. How ignorant I am sometimes.

Just recently I’d been struggling (hard-core) to submit my heart to Him in a certain matter. I wanted to and even tried at times but there was a disconnect somewhere. I knew that I had not truly given it over to God because I kept thinking and obsessing about it (which is a pretty good sign that I was trying to be in control). (grins to self)

So… how did I come to the place to submit my will in this circumstance to God?

Well, it’s pretty simple really. I tried over and over and over and over (well you get the point) again to make things happen the way I wanted them to and EVERY SINGLE TIME something went wrong. It’s almost like what I wanted was on the other side of a chain link fence and I was so close to getting it, but I just couldn’t. Basically I got tired of always failing. So after a few tears and a lot of disappointment I realized that I simply cannot control everything. BUT God can! (Amen and hallelujah!)

Understanding and believing are two totally different things. I’ve always understood that God has my best interest at heart and works out everything in my life for my good… but as for believing, I can’t say that I truly did.

Believing that God can take care of me is SO liberating!!! I no longer have to stress about making everything work out, because He does that for me.

So if you want some hard-core liberation come to the end of yourself and submit to God. It truly will change your life!

I'm certainly NOT perfect. I still have to choose to submit my will to God everyday... but I'm working on it. Maybe we can work on it together!

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